lol! progress report! ok la. I hate my a math grades. a c6 loh!

went back to xnps!
<3 zy!
crazy ljq ate 2 lunches. siao!
karthik didn't go back coz he had prelims. lol. saw his favourite mdm seetha. :D

we hang around till we were bored and went home.
me and zy are so anti-social
-oops-
better not let zy know about this.

ok nanyang girls learn math very fast
they already finished transformation of graphs already!
x(

am so dead!
a lot of hw.
next week mon, thurs and fri need to go back :(

mon service learning at toa payoh from 4 to 6.30!
i go with dolly! :D
she says i need to see a doctor.
LOL.
and the impossible quiz is too lame to be true ok?!
LOL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!





have to chiong hw now.
byes!

Lost my voice today
so couldn't really talk
very sad coz i love to talk and laugh.

ah!
you got progress report today already!
so good!
i have to wait till tmr.
lol
jia you!

i will definitely fail my a math
haiz........
sianed!

mrs abdullah camr to give us a motivational talk today..
erm.......
no comments
lol
she may interfere if we continue to not do homework
i got do hw kaes!
lol.

went straight to sleep once reached home
:))))))))))))
<3 sleeping :D

HAPPY TEACHERS DAY in advance! yay!
first thing in the morning, recess!
lols
i will dump lemonade down my throat to regain my voice.

bye bye!
i like hanis's poem!

hey hey
time for an update

sore eye + runny nose + sore throat + food poisoning
i am sick
LOL.

my eye is still sore
medicated oil and NaOH will only 'kill' my eye
xD lame..

geog file check today
T_T

i need to plan friday's CCA schedule
hate it man
but its my job
so will learn to love it.

woah
malay oral coming up
and i have been lazy to do anything
all i do these nights is SLEEP.
i doze off while i am reading notes
>.<

CCA going to suspend! x)
surprised that i am happy?

haha
lol

ok left about 3 wks to eoy
jia you everybody!!!!!
<3 <3
must have confidence kaes.
will definitely pass.
haha
you know who you are =)))))))))))))))) (((((((((:

Mr Ng said i must influence the class
i told him i have already influence my group negatively
coz i think i am very crazy
keep laughing
but its one of the few times in school that i can be so free and happy
LOL

intense revision
no sleeping

going back to xingnan this friday
zy must go kaes!
lol
then ljq can talk to you! xp
by the way, thx ljq for your help today :)

byes!
gtg do e math.
LOL

i am very pissed now

feel like blowing my top

but i shall keep my cool

x(

no more expectations please
i am not that influential

just wanted to say
learn from each failure=success. :)
don't be disheartened by some people's words
always believe in yourself

I believe in you! =D
so don't give up!
will succeed one day!

malay oral and written papers coming up on 12 sep and 26 sep respectively!
no sort of preparation yet
oh well
will try to squeeze time!

should stop my stupid obsession with grades
its making me unpleasant
hate me!

great expectations
you wouldn't want to try my lifestyle
its downright inhumane

i don't like to disppoint
but i would hate it even more if i lose respect
so
i shall not be bothered by my grades.

malay camp today! =D
we won 2 games! yay!
kumpulan adil rocks!

cikgu gave me present,so touched! <3
lol
we ate 4 times today!
full! full!

ok
have to chiong hw and ct.
ah my brain

get well soon :)

-happy birthday to me- :D

lol
math story today
winnie, garfield and spongebob rocks!
=D
I love hui jun and dolly
be happy, smile more! hui jun is so cute, don't be jealous. xD

thx for the present
its cute! =D

ok
so tmr i have to wake up at 6+ to drag myself to bishan
hm....
wonder if jia hui will go
must ok!
haha

chionging 5 Chemistry worksheets now!

thx for the bdae wishes everyone!
<3 you all. :)

failed a math!
passed chemistry!

now waiting for geography class test, a math short test and bio ct results.
-_-
my progress report will be very ugly


ah!
the format is formal letter!
wrong format, minus 2 marks!
but ms loh said she would adjust our marks since she did not point it out that we had to use formal letter for this type of qns, so i hope i will pass!

sorry!

lol
doing book reviews now
malay camp this sat
12 hours in MOELC, in uniform, on my bdae!
x(

hope it will be fun!

yay!
i finished revision!
left with a math!
and malay
aim: to finish a math today!

tata! having dinner now

881 OST! =)
七月歌台！
interesting culture :)

tomorrow is the first day of the seventh month
sleep early ppl and be careful
lol

my dad says asthmatic ppl have to sleep early
and he's going to throw my books down the window if I don't
-_-```
T_T
o.0
0.o

LOL..
happy bithday bro!
11 august!
14 le!

-I demand $50 for the history notes I did for you, don't pay me in rupiah!
lol
just joking.

>.<
i am still left with functions of blood
walao!
and a math and malay!
i slacked away national day hols!
i regret it!
ok
too hyped up
bye ppl
have to mug
or my books will get thrown
they are expensive ok?!

haha!
zai jian!
=D

Please Hear What I'm Not Saying

Don't be fooled by me.
Don't be fooled by the face I wear for I wear a mask,
a thousand masks,
masks that I'm afraid to take off,
and none of them is me.

Pretending is an art that's second nature with me,
but don't be fooled, for God's sake don't be fooled.
I give you the impression that I'm secure,
that all is sunny and unruffled with me,
within as well as without,
that confidence is my name and coolness my game,
that the water's calm and I'm in command and that I need no one,
but don't believe me.
My surface may seem smooth but my surface is my mask,
ever-varying and ever-concealing.
Beneath lies no complacence.
Beneath lies confusion, and fear, and aloneness.
But I hide this.
I don't want anybody to know it.
I panic at the thought of my weakness exposed.
That's why I frantically create a mask to hide behind,
a nonchalant sophisticated facade,
to help me pretend,
to shield me from the glance that knows.

But such a glance is precisely my salvation,
my only hope, and I know it.
That is, if it's followed by acceptance,
if it's followed by love.
It's the only thing that can liberate me from myself,
from my own self-built prison walls,
from the barriers I so painstakingly erect.
It's the only thing that will assure me of what I can't assure myself,
that I'm really worth something.
But I don't tell you this.
I don't dare to, I'm afraid to.
I'm afraid your glance will not be followed by acceptance,
will not be followed by love.
I'm afraid you'll think less of me,
that you'll laugh, and your laugh would kill me.
I'm afraid that deep-down I'm nothing
and that you will see this and reject me.

So I play my game, my desperate pretending game,
with a facade of assurance without and a trembling child within.
So begins the glittering but empty parade of masks,
and my life becomes a front.
I tell you everything that's really nothing,
and nothing of what's everything,
of what's crying within me.
So when I'm going through my routine
do not be fooled by what I'm saying.
Please listen carefully and try to hear what I'm not saying,
what I'd like to be able to say,
what for survival I need to say,
but what I can't say.

I don't like hiding.
I don't like playing superficial phony games.
I want to stop playing them.
I want to be genuine and spontaneous and me
but you've got to help me.
You've got to hold out your hand
even when that's the last thing I seem to want.
Only you can wipe away from my eyes
the blank stare of the breathing dead.
Only you can call me into aliveness.
Each time you're kind, and gentle, and encouraging,
each time you try to understand because you really care,
my heart begins to grow wings--
very small wings,
very feeble wings,
but wings!

With your power to touch me into feeling
you can breathe life into me.
I want you to know that.
I want you to know how important you are to me,
how you can be a creator--an honest-to-God creator--
of the person that is me if you choose to.
You alone can break down the wall behind which I tremble,
you alone can remove my mask,
you alone can release me from my shadow-world of panic,
from my lonely prison,
if you choose to.
Please choose to.

Do not pass me by.
It will not be easy for you.
A long conviction of worthlessness builds strong walls.
The nearer you approach to me the blinder I may strike back.
It's irrational, but despite what the books say about man
often I am irrational.
I fight against the very thing I cry out for.
But I am told that love is stronger than strong walls
and in this lies my hope.
Please try to beat down those walls
with firm hands but with gentle hands
for a child is very sensitive.

Who am I, you may wonder?
I am someone you know very well.
For I am every man you meet
and I am every woman you meet.

~ Charles C. Finn, September 1966

lol
malay project due next week
and I haven't done a bit of it
except for some ideas

haha
had a heartening conversation via sms with hanis yesterday
its the first time i think in my entire life i had something like that with someone else
thanks for lending me your ears. :)
<3

ok
i still have undone hw
so i shall buzz off
and finish them
byes for now!
=D

Happy Birthday Singapore!
42 years old already!
=D
Hanis got a big bear already
so I shall give her another present
hope she will like it! <3

chionging homework now
getting back A Math ct next monday
haiz
sianz
I can confirm it will not be a good grade

ok.
I lost my self test 3
can't find it!
I am sure I handed it in!
dolly and huijun can testify!

oh ya
Thx huijun for your help!
will return the activity 2c to you on friday when we meet up. :)

having a bad allergy attack
the nose keeps sneezing
its dying!
-touch wood-

bye bye!
=)

National Day celebration today!
=D
NDP contingent!
lol
very smart and nice. :)

this is the last year sec 3s would be on duty.
next year it would be the sec 2s holding the reins.
=D

shazana is in the same English tuition as me!
thanks for the early birthday present , shaz!
I love the chocolates!

oh yea
I want a bear for my bdae!
hahahahaha
I am immature.

Miss Loh went through a lesson and she asked us about the desirable qualities in your future partner
Ke Jun was puzzled that I don't desire romance.
lol
I am pragmatic!
You don't need to espress love in words
Its by your actions and eyes.

<3 your Love!

holidays!
a short one but there are tons of homework!
especially A Math!
ok
gotta go

10 days to my bdae!
18 Aug, same as Deeksha! :D

Love does not come knocking on your door always
so grab the opportunity presented to you. :]

oh man
CCA is disastrous
always running around
I always have no time for lunch
I am sorry, stomach.
bear with it for less than one year, then you will be free to digest lunch on tuesdays!

ok.
I am freaked out.
Saw the news on TV, a Taiwan channel that a Taiwan man who lived in America since young holds the world record of solving Rubik's cube in less than 11 seconds. He even displayed his talent in a movie.
wow.
lol.
really admire those who have the intellectual capacity to solve it.
=)

the only thing I don't really like about nd celebration is that we have to take photos!
eek!

I am losing interest in CCA
but what can I do?
nothing.

I AM SUCH A LOSER!
-stupid-

HAPPY BIRTHDAY HANIS!
I have enough charm to attract you!
but not others la.
:p
ME AND HANIS LOVE BEARS AND THE COLOUR RED. WE ARE IDENTICAL. :D

fwahahaha

I stayed up till 2 to do up the situational writing notes.
who wants them?
sms/msn/send an email to me! my number is 91610931 and 67922509. LOL!
email: qini1992@hotmail.com
will send them to you asap!

Do well people!
I will be happy to know my notes helped other people, am doing this coz I was helped by others before and I am passing on this spirit!
=D

Thank you.

LOL.
I want a bear for my birthday!
just like hanis, lets exchange bears! =p
my bdae is on 18 Aug, i know i am repeating when my bdae is
zi lian and shameless. lols.

LOL.
I fell asleep on the sofa last night while watching TV, my dad had to carry me back to my room. Thanks daddy! <3

I woke up at 11.30 today!
I am turning into a pig, I kept craving for food today.

Oh yes, I am allergic to pollen and lactose[milk]
so I don't touch milk.

sometimes I have asthma too. I am sickly.

oh yes, English common test.
not much effort put in for this test, so I won't expect good grades.

left with chem, geog map reading and omg malay. sorry cikgu!

off to do the situational writing notes!
haha.
National Geographic and Newsweek are nice!
although Newsweek is all about politics which is ok for me, but some viewpoints are a bit biased. -no offence-

BANANA man!

my grandma is so sweet. :) <3 always.

THANKS FOR THE MEMORIES
不在乎天长地久，
只在乎曾经拥有。
=）

oh yea,
I haven't settled the video thing
and Mr Liang Lu hasn't replied yet!
my god.

signing off
-seven soil-
this is my name according to <3 HUI JUN <3 =D

sole this from Lily
hope you don't mind! thx. =)

I AM : A insensitive retard who hurts other people's feelings unknowingly, especially those dearly loved. I am sorry.

I WANT : Good grades and to grow taller! I am surrounded by tall ppl everyday.

I HAVE : Loads of homework to do. :)

I WISH : To have time on my side.

I HATE : Making other ppl unhappy, be happy!

I FEAR : I would lose loved ones. <3

I HEAR : Music, WESTLIFE!

I SEARCH : Google and Wolfram for math, my dad told me to do so.

I WONDER : How it would be if I was perfect, coz I will never be.

I REGRET : Doing stupid and insensitive things.

I LOVE : Family and friends! yay! Dolly doesn't accept my love! :..(

I AM ALWAYS : Dozing off to sleep!

I AM NOT : Doing Malay which I owed for quite some time.

I NEVER : Want to live a dull life.

I RARELY : Cry. I think it through and numb myself by doing work. eek.

I CRY : erm.. When I am greatly disappointed or definitely when someone leaves me.

I AM NOT ALWAYS : Studious like crazy ok, Max. haha

I LOSE : When playing Sudoku with my brother, he's smart ok. =p

I NEED : Sleep, time and water.

I SHOULD : Be mugging now.

I LONG FOR : The days after the O levels! SLACK!

I DRIVE : other people crazy by being retarded.

I ANALYZE : erm exam qns, its a must! I analyse people too!

I WILL : Work hard!

I HOPE : For your forgiveness.

I HURT : Loads of ppl.

I FEEL : Guilty.

I HIDE : Food in my bag.

I LISTEN : To music.

I BREATHE : erm oxygen. lol

I LEARNED : Trigonometric eqns, salt preparation, blood, Mussolini and rivers this week!

I DREAM ABOUT : lol, a lot of things.

I WAIT : For the end of the Os. I hate it.

I SAY : walao too much for my mother to be happy.

I THINK : I need medication for my allergy.

I KNOW : Only an insignificant part of the knowledge the entire world has to give.

I PLANNED ON : Doing malay. x)



LAST PEOPLE YOU ..

Saw : Mummy!

Talked to on the phone : Boon kiat, my junior.

Met : A lot of people.

Text messaged : Hanis and CCA teacher.

Ate with : Wen Jie for lunch!

TODAY ..

I'm : Going to sleep early!

Wearing : Pyjamas!

What were you doing 10 hours ago : 10hours ago, I was in Geography Class.

FAVOURITE ..

Number(s) : 6 and 8!

Movie : Secret, its advertisements are everywhere. .........

CURRENTLY ..

Are you missing someone right now : My friends.
Mood : neutral.

Wanting : Time and your forgiveness.

First thing you did this morning?
Opened my eyes and fell back on my bear bolster in a second.

What's bothering you right now?
Guilt.

Where is the last place you went?
hey, Jurong West.

Do you have any siblings?
Younger brother!

Do you smile often?
Yup.

Do you wish upon stars?
Always.

Are you a friendly person?
erm, yea, if you don't regard me as a loner.

What color shirt are you wearing?
Red, my favourite colour! short wavelengths!

What were you doing at 12 last night?
Doing A Math. zzzz....

When was the last time you cried?
Tuesday, my dad got angry coz of someting I did.

Do you get angry easily?
No. My anger is faked. haha

Take any vitamins?
no. I am a rebel.

What are you about to do?
MALAY!

Did you ever check your phone waiting for someone to call?
no, I don't really like ppl calling me.

Rate life as of right now... 0-10?
5. average, stricken with guilt.

Sorry, sincerely. <3

My birthday is coming!
18 August!
haha xD

Happy birthday to shaz who has the same birthday as Singapore!
I think Hanis's birthday is coming too!
happy birthday!

Dolly, don't get angry. :) the sheep huijun drew is really very cute, I don't mind you using my name for your situational writing!
=D
Li Qi Ni
this is my hanyupinyin name on birth cert, so its still my real full name

I am so stupid!
I faulted today.
I have a premonition I would lose you, and I did.
wow
my sixth sense is real accurate.
x(

eng situational writing!

Its Lame!
I am slacking, and I did something real stupid today.

LOL!
wenjie said there's an IQ test and its qns are math olympiad qns?!
she's smart, her boyfriend's smart too.

and kejun, stop crapping! Its not true anyway! I swear upon my work! you know what i mean kejun, and cut your long long hair! =D

ok!
gotta mug my way through hw now.
tatas!
oh ya, I prepared english notes, who wants them?
=D