shit
malay is so difficult
and with those grammar things
i think i am dead
with oral and compo
i am rotting!

kill me
kill me
kill me
kill me
kill me
kill me
kill me
kill me
kill me
kill me

lol i think i am crazy

prelims starts so early
siao one

I guess..

If only you could see the tears in the world you left behind
If only you could heal my heart just one more time
Even when I close my eyes
There's an image of your face
And once again I come I'll relise
You're a loss I can't replace

Soledad
It's a keeping for the lonely
Since the day that you were gone
Why did you leave me
Soledad
In my heart you were the only
And your memory live on
Why did you leave me
Soledad

Walking down the streets of nothingville
Where our love was young and free
Can't believe just what an empty place
It has come to be
I would give my life away
If it could only be the same
Cause I can't still the voice inside of me
That is calling out your name

Soledad
It's a keeping for the lonely
Since the day that you were gone
Why did you leave me
Soledad
In my heart you were the only
And your memory live on
Why did you leave me
Soledad

Time will never change the things you tols me
After all we're meant to be love will bring us back to you and me
If only you could see

Soledad
It's a keeping for the lonely
Since the day that you were gone
Why did you leave me
Soledad
In my heart you were the only
And your memory live on
Why did you leave me
Soledad

ok
I hate school
I have to report at bishan the very first day and go home very late
T_T
no more waking up late
no more tv marathons
no more slacking
no more games
no more internet during weekends

have to do homework
and study for exams

lol
loads of grumbling
learn to accept all of these =)
at the end of year 2008
full-time slacking!!!!
yay!
lol
i am crazy
do too much a math

bye!

Love Is Forever
词曲: 黄倍仪

做了朋友那么多年
而你却始终 没改变
单眼皮的笑 偶尔扁着嘴角
我们的快乐从不变调

# 生活上喜怒哀乐一起分担
渐渐的我们也无所不谈
不加糖的咖啡都不觉得苦
你加上我 加上爱 等于幸福

* 我不要 你把我推给别人去疼爱
我对你的心是百分之一百
每一个想你的习惯 那么实在
我早已对你产生的依赖
一天天 一点点 砌成了爱
Love Is Forever Forever Love

Repeat # *

原来爱情是 需要一点苦涩
才能找到属于自己的角色
原来爱情是 需要一点眼泪
不只是单纯享受幸福的滋味

Repeat *

路灯躲进窗台
摇醒我的无奈
这城市
只剩下尘埃
纯粹的是期待
却消失得太快
未说出
半句对白
没有爱的城市漆黑整片天空的精彩
再多的色彩也调和不出绚丽的未来
寂寞的爱
在狂欢中苍白
躲过相互的依赖
却学不会释怀
谁陪我跳舞
谁又陪我同路
什么是情感天赋
什么是爱的追逐
谁陪我去哭
谁又陪我麻木
爱已穷途末路我却顽固
尽力维护
谁来陪我认输
谁又陪我迷路
走完路途
输了全部
却说不出
爱的满足

doing revision now
combined humanities is very difficult
x(

我问为什么
那女孩传简讯给我
而你为什么
不解释低着头沉默
我该相信你很爱我
不愿意敷衍我
还是明白
你已不想挽回什么

想问为什么
我不再是你的快乐
可是为什么
却苦笑说我都懂了
自尊常常将人拖着
把爱都走曲折
假装了解是怕
真相太赤裸裸
狼狈比失去难受

我怀念的是无话不说
我怀念的是一起作梦
我怀念的是争吵以后
还是想要爱你的冲动

我记得那年生日
也记得那一首歌
记得那片星空
最紧的右手
最暖的胸口
谁记得
谁忘了

想问为什么
我不再是你的快乐
可是为什么
却苦笑说我都懂了
自尊常常将人拖着
把爱都走曲折
假装了解是怕
真相太赤裸裸
狼狈比失去难受

我怀念的是无话不说
我怀念的是一起作梦
我怀念的是争吵以后
还是想要爱你的冲动

我记得那年生日
也记得那一首歌
记得那片星空
最紧的右手
最暖的胸口
谁忘了

我怀念的是无言感动
我怀念的是绝对炽热
我怀念的是你很激动
求我原谅抱得我都痛

我记得你在背后
也记得我颤抖着
记得感觉汹涌
最美的烟火
最长的相拥
谁爱得太自由
谁过头太远了
谁要走我的心
谁忘了那就是承诺

谁自顾自地走
谁忘了看着我
谁让爱变沉重
谁忘了要给你温柔

我怀念的
我还有想要爱你的冲动
我记得那年生日
也记得那一首歌
记得那片星空
最紧的右手
最暖的胸口

我放手
我让座
假洒脱
谁懂我多么不舍得

太爱了
所以我
没有哭
没有说

人生得一知己，死而无憾。

http://www.seab.gov.sg/SEAB/oLevel/syllabus/school/2008_GCE_O.html

go this site for o lvl 2008 syllabus.
i think ours is the ones which are newly examined in 2008
coz only one with 3 SPA assessments.

x)
x(

Little minds are interested in the extraordinary, great minds in the commonplace.

Genius is only the POWER of making continuous efforts.

Strong man can ALWAYS afford to be gentle. Only the weak are intent on "giving as good as they get".

Do your work with your whole heart, and you will succeed? -true or not?-

The SECRET of Success is that: there is no secret of success. x)

He has achieved SUCCESS who has worked well, laughed often and loved much.

Many people fall in life, simply because they have never organised their ENERGIES around a goal.

WISE MAN: One who sees the storm coming before the clouds appear.

The Great Man: Man is a man who LIVES a long way off. -??-

The best PREPARATION for good work tomorrow is to do good work today.

MONEY never made a fool of anybody, it only shows them up.

Teaching kids to count is fine, but teaching what COUNTS is best.

12 inspiring phrases taken from a calendar.
haha x)

stole from aud again x)

[One] Who was your last text from?
jie

[Two] Where was your default picture taken?
huh forgot.

[Three] What's your FULL name?
Lee Qi Ni

[Four] Your current status?
Single. x)

[Five] What is your current mood?
irritated with chinese hw

[Six] How old are you?
15.

[Seven] If you could go back in time and change something, would you?
Yup.

[Eight] What's your favorite color/s?
Red.

[Nine] Ever had a near death experience?
hmm acute asthma attack.

[Ten] Something you do a lot?
sleep.

[Eleven] Who can you tell ANYTHING to?
erm my bears

[Twelve] Name someone with the same birthday as you.
deeksha x)

[Thirteen] If you could have one super power what would it be?
teleportation. can save on transport fees and time.

[Fourteen] What's the first thing you notice about the opposite sex?
erm notice nothing of the appearance, notice actions.

[Fifteen] Favorite season?
Autumn.

[Sixteen] Do you still watch kiddy movies or tv shows?
yup.

[Seventeen ] What are you eating or drinking at the moment?
just finished finnder.

[Eighteen] What language do you speak?
English, Chinese, little of Malay, a little bit of dialect.

[Nineteen] Describe your life in one word.
busy.

[Twenty] Do you have any tattoos?
no way. -ouch-

[Twenty-one] Who was the last person you hung out with?
uh 4 other ppl.

[Twenty-two ] What are you thinking about right now?
chi hw

[Twenty-three] What should you be doing?
chi hw

[Twenty-four] Who was the last person that made you upset?
erm cannot say the name, is not that person him/her self but our talk of another person.

[Twenty-five] What are you listening to?
haha music. x)

[Twenty-six ] Do you like working in the yard?
uh never worked in a yard before

[Twenty-seven] Who is with you?
with? 2 tiny yellow bears.

[Twenty- eight] Do you act different around the person you like?
i would remain calm. calmness ensures you won't do anything stupid.

[Twenty- nine] What is your natural hair color?
Black.

[Thirty] Last time you were really happy?
today. haha.


SECTION 1 - YOU!
+ Known as: qini
+ Hair color: Black
+ eye: black

SECTION 2 - HAVE YOU EVER
+ Fallen off the bed?: yea. scary
+ Broken someone else's heart?: hope not
+ Had your heart broken?: hmm.. dunno
+ Had a dream come true?: hmm getting bears i wanted. x) next dream: ngee ann poly business management and good O level results of course.

SECTION 3 - CURRENTLY...
+ Wearing: Specs, tees, shorts.
+ Listening to: music.
+ Location: Home.
+ Chatting with: Nobody.
+ Should REALLY be: doing chi hw

SECTION 4 - DO YOU...
+ Have any piercings: no.
+ Drive: Nopes.
+ Drink everyday without fail: No.
+ Have a cell phone: Yea.

SECTIO N 5 - LAST PERSON YOU...
+ Hugged: daddy.
+ Talked with on the phone: jie
+ Text: jie or jayper i forgot.

SECTION 6 - PERSONAL...
+ What do you want to be when you grow up?: public relations officer/human resource manager.
+ What comes first in your life?: Family,friends and studies. tie for first place.

SECTION 7- FAVORITES
+ Show: lol.
+ Store: dunno. don't really care for shops.
+ Food: hmm a lot.
+ Color: Red.

SECTION 8 - DO YOU...
+ Like to give hugs: haha depends on whether the other person wants it.
+ Like to walk in the rain: hmm no.
+Prefer white or black?: white.
+ Sleep on your side: Yes.
+ Have stuffed animals: heh what are my bears?

SECTION 9- THIS OR THAT...(pick)
+ Pierced nose or tongue: Neither. ugh
+ MTV or BET: MTV.
+ 7th Heaven or Dawsons:??
+ Chocolate or flowers: Chocolate. flowers wilt.
+ Color or black-and-white photos: haha colour.
+ stay up late or sleep in: both actually.
+ Hot or cold: hot. i cannot take the cold.
+ Sun or moon: both. x)
+ Left or Right: Right.
+ 10 Acquaintances or one best friend: hmm 10 acquaintances.
+ Spring or Fall: Fall.
+ Happy or sad: Happy.
+ Wonder or amazement: Amazement.

SECTION 10: FIRSTS.
First self purchased CD: JJ.
First pet: none.
First piercing/tattoos: none

SECTION 11: LASTS.
Last GOOD cry: erm not too long ago i think
Last phone call: haha jie
Last time showered: ytd night.

SECTION 12: CURRENT.
Current mood: happy?
Current food: pu er cha (:
Current hair: er normal loh
Current annoyance(s): chi hw? haha

SECTION 13: WHO LAST...
1. Made you smile: hmm.... mum.
2. Saw you cry : family.

SECTION 14: WOULD YOU RATHER..
1. Be serious or be funny: Balance of both.
2. Drink whole or skim milk: erm don't like cow's milk.
3. Spend time with your parents or enemies? : both. enemies to try and resolve conflict


1. Spell your name without E.
- l qi ni

2. What is your status?
- attached to my bear

3. What's your favorite number?
- 6,8.

4. What's your favorite color?
- red

5. What's your other favorite colors?
- orange,pink,purple,yellow.

6. What are you listening to?
- xue zhong hua (:

7. Are you happy with your life?
- hmm do away with O levels haha x)

8. If you were to be any animal in the whole wide world what would it be?
- bear luh.

9. What is your favorite subject in school?
- haha should I say english or CH, actually I dislike CH, weird eh?

1 0. Are you usually outgoing?
- i seem like a loner

11. Where do you wish you were?
- in china, holiday after O levels mah

12. What are you supposed to be doing?
- chi hw

Can you blow a bubble?
- haha yea

Can you wiggle your ears?
- can't x)

Can you roll your tongue?
- Yup. xD

Can you touch your tongue to your nose?
- nah.

Did you ever want to be a doctor?
- no. sort of don't like to see blood and all.

Did you ever want to be a firefighter?
- hmm no.

Do you like roller coasters?
- not really unless got some person beside me whom i can hold on to.

Do you own a bike?
- I don't know how to cycle.x)

Does your family have family picnics?
- nah.

How did you find out about Friendster?
- through friends.

Last person you hugged?
- daddy.

Last thing you said out loud?
- forgot.

What's the last restaurant you ate at?
- forgot.

What was the last thing you bought?
- books, foolscap and specs.

What was the last thing you drank?
- tea.

Who was the last person to text you?
- jayper.

Who was the last person you held hands with?
- my dad and bear.

1. The phone rings, who do you want it to be?
- anybody also ok.

2. When shopping at the grocery store, do you return your cart?
- my family does not use carts

3. If you had to kiss the last person you kissed again, would you?
- i would gladly kiss my bear again, but its dead now x(

4. Do you take compliments well?
- uh ok ba.

5. Do you play Sudoku?
- not really. play scrabble la. x)

6 . If abandoned alone in the wilderness would you survive?
- based on willpower, three to four days ba.

7. If your house was on fire, what would be the first thing you would save?
- school work and bears.

8. Who was the last person you slept in the bed with?
- cousin x)

9. Who do you text the most?
- jie.

10 . Favorite children's book?
- forgot mostly about winnie.

11 . Eye color?
- Black.

12. How tall are you?
- 160

13. If you could do it over again, start from scratch, would you?
- do o lvl bio spa all over again. yep.

14. Any secret admirers?
- hmm if it is secret, then I wouldn't know. haha. x)

15. does the person u miss misses u?
- erm guess so.

16 . When was the last time you were at Olive Garden?
- olive garden? no.

17. Favorite ex..?
- no ex.

18. Where was the furthest place you travelled?
- china. x)

19. Do you like mustard?
- ugh yuck

20. Do you prefer to sleep or eat?
- sleep.

21. Do you miss anyone?
- haha what do you think?

22. Can you do splits?
- no. x)

23. What movie do you want to see?
- Alvin and the chipmunks and The Warlord.

24. What did you do for New Year's Eve?
- sleep in and do hw?

25. Do you think The Grudge was creepy?
- ugh never watched it before.

2 6. Do you own a camera phone?
- Yup.

27. Was your mom a cheerleader?
- no.

28. What's the last letter of your middle name?
- i

29. Are you hispanic?
- Nah, I don't come from latin america for god's sake. x)

30 . Do you like care bears?
- haha any bears i will like

31 . What do you buy at the Movies?
- Tickets and sometimes share popcorn.

32. Do you know how to play poker?
- of course, as my malay teacher said: poker is a social skill everyone has to master x)

33. Do you wear your seatbelt?
- only when my mum asks me to.

34. What do you wear to sleep?
- sometimes tees and shorts or PJs.

35 . Anything big ever happen in your CITY?
- hmm SARS.

36. Is your hair straight or curly?
- generally straight.

37. Is your tongue pierced?
- nah.

38. Do you like Liver and onions?
- liver no onions ok when fried with other things.

39. Do you like funny or serious people better?
- both also ok. x) most impt, must know how to be funny or serious at the right time.

40. Ever been to L.A.?
- no.

41. Who is on your mind right now?
- hmm none bah. x)

42. Any plans 4 tonight?
- watch tv.

43. Whats your fav. song at the moment?
- xue zhong hua. - i am not obiang ok-

4 4 . Do you hate chocolate?
- not really. don't be too sweet or bitter. hmm i seem picky.

45. What do you and your parents fight about the most?
- er..

4 6. Are you a gullible person?
- maybe.

47. Do you need a boyfriend/girlfriend to be happy?
- no, must be happy regardless what.

4 8 . If you could have any job what would it be?
- PR officer, HR manager.

49. Are you easy to get along with?
- think so.

50. What is your favorite time of day?
- Night, coz its when i really complete work.

51. Are you generally a happy person?
- ok luh, i don't cry often. x) stay happy always.

tsk
my bear bolster is dead
argh
going to be thrown away
=`(

chi hw chi hw chi hw chi hw chi hw chi hw
haha
my mum told me quite a few phrases on gambling
anybody need them? x)

"Heart Without A Home"

Girl I love to watch you
You're like candy to my eyes
Like a movie that you've seen
But you gotta watch just one more time
But that smile you're wearing
It's a beautiful disguise
It's just something you put on to hide the emptiness inside
And you seem so lonely

But you don't have to anymore..

[Chorus:]
If you're a heart without a home
Rebel without a cause
If you feel as though
You're always stranded on the shore
Like a thief in the night
Let me steal your heart away
Baby if for reasons, what you're looking for
I'll be yours

I'll be yours

You need a new sensation
One you never had before
I got a feeling if I gave you some
You'd probably want some more
Did you know that Baby
You're the bluebird in my sky
I only wanna make you happy cause
I love to see you fly

And if you feel lonely
You don't have to anymore

[Chorus]

I'll be yours, I'll be yours

I'll be the raft in the tide
I'll be yours
I'll be the truth in the light
And what's more
When no one opens the door
I'll be the hope that you're looking for

[Chorus]

I'll be yours...

:)

stole this from aud x)

Q1: How old will you be in five years?
ANS: 20.

Q2: Do you think you will be married by then?
ANS: should I say impossible? x)

Q3: How tall are you?
ANS: 160cm. x(

Q4: What do you look forward to most in the next six weeks?
ANS: I can complete all my homework and revision by then.

Q5: What's the last movie you saw in theater?
ANS: Enchanted.

Q6: Who was the last person you called?
ANS: jie darl

Q7: Who was the last person to call you?
ANS: jie darl

Q8: Do you prefer to call or text?
ANS: erm both for gals, text for guys.

Q9: Do you have any pets?
ANS: Nah. allergy plus family's dislike for pets.

Q10: What were you doing at 12 am last night?
ANS: chemistry revision.

Q11: Are your parents married/separated/divorced?
ANS: Married.

Q12: When is the last time you saw your mom?
ANS: now.

Q13: What color are your eyes?
ANS: black bah, never bothered to notice.

Q14: What time did you wake up today?
ANS: erm nine plus.

Q15: What are you wearing right now?
ANS: t-shirt plus shorts.

Q16: What's your favorite Christmas song?
ANS: hmm never thought about it.

Q17: Where is your favorite place to be?
ANS: library

Q18: Where is your least favorite place to be?
ANS: toilets. i hate them even though i need them x)

Q19: Where would you go if you could go anywhere?
ANS: heh china. x) nice scenery.

Q20: Where do you think you'll be in 10 years?
ANS: Singapore probably.

Q21: Do you tan or burn?
ANS: Tan.

Q22: What did you fear was going to get you at night as a child?
ANS: tiger. x)

Q23: What was the last thing that made you laugh?
ANS: msn conversation with jie & kok.

Q24: How many TVs do you have?
ANS: 2.

Q25: How big is your bed?
ANS: Super single.

Q26: Do you have a laptop or desktop computer?
ANS: Desktop.

Q27: Do you sleep with or without clothes on?
ANS: With.

Q28: What color are your sheets?
ANS: Pink & one brown-red with papa-bears on it.

Q29: How many pillows do you sleep with?
ANS: 1. but i sleep on my bolster.

Q30: What is your favorite season?
ANS: Autumn. romantic. x)

Q31: What do you like about fall?
ANS: trees and the sky filled with 'floating' leaves.

Q32: What do you like about winter?
ANS: snow ba. but i kinda dislike the cold? x)

Q33: What do you like about the summer?
ANS: erm there's more heat.

Q34: What do you like about spring?
ANS: flowers and the temperature.

Q35: How many provinces have you lived in?
ANS: ?? 2 bah

Q36: How many cities/towns have you lived in?
ANS: 2

Q37: Do you prefer shoes, socks, or bare feet?
ANS: shoes

Q38: Are you a social person?
ANS: hmm.. i seem like a loner.

Q39: What was the last thing you ate?
ANS: apple.

Q40: What is your favorite restaurant?
ANS: in msia, oh the food is great.

Q41: What is your favorite ice cream?
ANS: erm mr bean's soya-bean ice cream!

Q1: Have you ever had a crush on someone and didn't tell them ?
ANS: huh? no.

Q2: Did they find out eventually?
ANS: ...

Q3: Have you experienced love yet?
ANS: yea from family and friends luh.

Q4: Have you ever been kissed?
ANS: haha my dad and bears

Q5: First Kiss.. With Who ? When and Where?
ANS: lol. none.

Q6: Have you had a serious relationship yet?
ANS: no.

Q7: Ever been heartbroken?
ANS: no. no point getting upset over some other person who does not belong to you.

Q8: Ever broken someone's heart?
ANS: hmm hope not.

Q9: Do you believe in Love At First Sight?
ANS: no,love is grown over a period of time/

Q10: What about "There is someone for everyone?"
ANS: erm not really. there are lots of singles out there.

Q11: Age Difference - is it wrong, or is "Age only a number" ?
ANS: erm in what context? x)

Q12: What about online relationships? Can they work?
ANS: no way. how do you even maintain it.

Q13: Ever like more than one person at a time?
ANS: huh. no.

Q14: Ever date more than one person at a time?
ANS: no.

Q15: Quick ! Last relationship : Good, Bad or Never had one?
ANS: never had one.

Q16: Ever have one of those days where every song on the radio reminds you of someone?
ANS: Yeah.

Q17: If so, which song really made you think?
ANS: Heart without a home by westlife. nicest song guys can ever sing to gals. x)

Q18: What do you look for in a partner?
ANS: forgiving, fun, filial, kind, hardworking and definitely non-possesive.

Q19: Believe that relationships can have a fairy tale ending?
ANS: erm no. be pragmatic ppl.

Q20: What about movies about romance, are they realistic?
ANS: no. be pragmatic.

Q21: One night stands, or serious relationships?
ANS: Serious relationships. -_-

Q22: Are you afraid of commitment ?
ANS: hmm no.

Q23: Do you let other people's opinions matter when your dating someone ?
ANS: well yea. its impt to consider all opinions.

Q24: Think Valentine's day is too played out, or do you enjoy it all the same ?
ANS: hmm. dunno.

Q25: Are you planning on getting married ?
ANS: erm not really.

Q26: Ideal honeymoon spot ?
ANS: haha tioman is beautiful. i like beaches.

Q27: What's your idea of a perfect date ?
ANS: study date at libraries. x)

Q28: How far will you go on a first date ?
ANS: huh. talk.

Q29: Are you a hopeless romantic ?
ANS: hopeless?

Q30: Quick ! Currently : Crushing, Dating or Single with no interest?
ANS: attached to my bear. x)

Q31: Ever crush on a Celebrity ?
ANS: nah.

Q32: Quick ! Choose : Romantic or Sexy ? .
ANS: romance.

Q33: Ever cheat/been cheated on ?
ANS: huh. hope not.

Q34: Ever take the chance of liking a friend, and making it something more?
ANS: huh? i thought love started from friendship. hmm..

Q35: Still a virgin ?
ANS: say no to premarital sex. x)

Q1: Given a Hickey?
ANS: what?

Q2: Had a one night stand?
ANS: No.

Q3: Made someone cry?
ANS: hmmm.. hope not.

Q4: Opened your Christmas presents early?
ANS: huh sometimes when i do get christ prez.

Q5: Been online for more than 10 hours in a row?
ANS: no. my bro and mum and dad would kill me.

Q6: Pretended to be someone you weren't online?
ANS: no. weird.

Q7: Eaten food that fell on the floor?
ANS: uhhuh. haha. i thought most kids do that when they were young.

Q8: Been caught cheating?
ANS: huh?

Q9: Been caught naked?
ANS: huh? no.

Q10: Flashed at someone?
ANS: oh no.

Q11: Gone out without underwear on?
ANS: uh no.

Q12: Got into a fist fight?
ANS: haha. maybe.

Q13: Swallowed bath water?
ANS: ugh. no.

Q14: Peed in the pool?
ANS: huh?

Q15: Thrown up in public?
ANS: uh don't rmb

Q16: Been so drunk you can't walk?
ANS: i don't touch alcohol. haha.

Q17: Peed in public?
ANS: Uh no.

Q18: Broken wind and blamed someone else?
ANS: no.

Q19: Done something mean you regretted?
ANS: yea. x(

Q20: Ever played pull my finger?
ANS: uh yea.

Q21: Have you ever like someone and not told them how you feel?
ANS: erm no.

Q22: Had a crush on a brother/sister's friend?
ANS: omg, my bro's friends are all younger than me.

Q23: Favorite spot to be kissed?
ANS: what?


Q1: Cats or Dogs?
ANS: both also don't really like.

Q2: Boys or Girls?
ANS: uh dunno. both.

Q3: Sea or Sand?
ANS: sea.

Q4: Bands or DJs?
ANS: DJs.

Q5: Clubs or Bars?
ANS: clubs. x)

Q6: Coke or Pepsi?
ANS: i don't touch soft drinks. i am nerdy. 0.0

Q7: Indoors or Outdoors?
ANS: both are nice.

Q8: Excitement or Relaxation?
ANS: both. all of us need a balance of both.

Q9: Art or Science?
ANS: Art.

Q10: Facebook or Myspace?
ANS: Neither.

Q11: Books or Movies?
ANS: both are ok.

Q12: Fiction or Fact?
ANS: both.

Q13: Latest fashion or Comfortable clothes?
ANS: comfortable clothes. i have absolute zero fashion sense.

huh
bored at home
haha
thought about a lot of things last night

and yeah this part of 'What Do They Know' was quite inspiring? lol
How can you understand
A love so strong
When you never shared
that with someone

yeah
maybe love will never be understood completely.

Lyrics to "When We Believe"

We begin our journey with our hopes held high
Because of you, I soar with wings to fly
As we heed the call, we're standing tall
Set our eyes on giving all our best

Drawing inspiration from our home so dear
Our desire to make our nation proud
We belong together, we're a team
Hand in hand, together as we dream

When we believe, we know that we can touch the sky
Yes, we will achieve, our dreams are just within our reach
Our spirits soar, with love to share
And hearts that care
Because we dare to dream
When we believe

Amblyopia
From Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

Amblyopia, or lazy eye,[1] is a disorder of the visual system that is characterized by poor or indistinct vision in an eye that is otherwise physically normal, or out of proportion to associated structural abnormalities. It has been estimated to affect 1–5% of the population.[2]

The problem is caused by either no transmission or poor transmission of the visual image to the brain for a sustained period of dysfunction or during early childhood. Amblyopia normally only affects one eye, but it is possible to be amblyopic in both eyes if both are similarly deprived of a good, clear visual image. Detecting the condition in early childhood increases the chance of successful treatment.

Physiology
Amblyopia is a developmental problem in the brain, not an organic problem in the eye (although organic problems can induce amblyopia which persist after the organic problem has resolved).[3] The part of the brain corresponding to the visual system from the affected eye is not stimulated properly, and develops abnormally. This has been confirmed via direct brain examination. David H. Hubel and Torsten Wiesel won the Nobel Prize in Physiology or Medicine in 1981 for their work demonstrating the irreversible damage to ocular dominance columns produced in kittens by sufficient visual deprivation during the so-called "critical period". The maximum critical period in humans is from birth to two years old.[1]

Symptoms
Many people with amblyopia, especially those who are only mildly so, are not even aware they have the condition until tested at older ages, since the vision in their stronger eye is normal. However, people who have severe amblyopia may experience associated visual disorders, most notably poor depth perception. Amblyopes suffer from poor spatial acuity, low sensitivity to contrast and some "higher-level" deficits to vision such as reduced sensitivity to motion.[4] These deficits are usually specific to the amblyopic eye, not the unaffected "fellow" eye. Amblyopes also suffer from problems of binocular vision such as limited stereoscopic depth perception and usually have difficulty seeing the three-dimensional images in hidden stereoscopic displays such as autostereograms.[5] However perception of depth from monocular cues such as size, perspective, and motion parallax is normal.

Types
Amblyopia can be caused by deprivation of vision early in life, by strabismus (misaligned eyes), by vision-obstructing disorders, or by anisometropia (different degrees of myopia or hyperopia in each eye).

Refractive or anisometropic amblyopia
Refractive amblyopia may result from anisometropia (unequal refractive errors between the two eyes). Anisometropia exists when there is a difference in the refraction between the two eyes. The eye with less far-sighted (hyperopic) refractive error provides the brain with a clearer image, and is favored by the brain. Refractive amblyopia is usually less severe than strabismic amblyopia and is commonly missed by primary care physicians because of its less dramatic appearance and lack of obvious physical manifestation, such as with strabismus.[8] Frequently, amblyopia is associated with a combination of anisometropia and strabismus.

Pure refractive amblyopia is treated by correcting the refractive error early with prescription lenses. Vision therapy and/or eye patching can also be used to develop and/or improve visual abilities, binocular vision, depth perception, etc.

Meridional amblyopia is a mild condition in which lines are seen less clearly at some orientations than others after full refractive correction. An individual who had an astigmatism at a young age that was not corrected by glasses will later have astigmatism that cannot be optically corrected.[citation needed]

Form-deprivation and occlusion amblyopia
Form-deprivation amblyopia (Amblyopia ex anopsia) results when the ocular media become opaque, such as is the case with cataracts or corneal scarring from forceps injuries during birth.[9] These opacities prevent adequate sensory input from reaching the eye, and therefore disrupt visual development. If not treated in a timely fashion, amblyopia may persist even after the cause of the opacity is removed. Sometimes, drooping of the eyelid (ptosis) or some other problem causes the upper eyelid to physically occlude a child's vision, which may cause amblyopia quickly. Occlusion amblyopia may be a complication of a hemangioma that blocks some or all of the eye.

Treatment and prognosis
Treatment of strabismic or anisometropic amblyopia consists of correcting the optical deficit and forcing use of the amblyopic eye, either by patching the good eye, or by instilling topical atropine in the eye with better vision. One should also be wary of over-patching or over-penalizing the good eye when treating for amblyopia, as this can create so-called "reverse amblyopia" in the other eye.[7][10]

Form deprivation amblyopia is treated by removing the opacity as soon as possible followed by patching or penalizing the good eye to encourage use of the amblyopic eye.[7]

Although the best outcome is achieved if treatment is started before age 5, research has shown that children older than age 10 and some adults can show improvement in the affected eye. Children from 7 to 12 who wore an eye patch and performed near point activities (vision therapy) were four times as likely to show a two line improvement on a standard 11 line eye chart than amblyopic children who did not receive treatment. Children 13 to 17 showed improvement as well, albeit in smaller amounts than younger children. (NEI-funded Pediatric Eye Disease Investigator Group, 2005)[7][11] Some claim the controversial[12] Bates Method can reverse amblyopia, however, this assertion is unfounded. [13]

erm
i have lazy eyes o.0
due to vast differences in the degree of myopia of both eyes
-_-
...

(((:
fever has subsided x)

hmm..
thx wen jie
love you a lot! xD

i guess i won't be able to complete all hw by sat
its impossible!
the chi hw just give you mind blocks and you can't think of anything good.
tsk

i hate you x)

haha
talking with my another beloved cousin online
its a she
not guy x)

haha
nemo is cute x)
i am crapping a lot

haiyuh
i seriously don't look forward to next year
-_-
but i do look forward to seeing friends x)

there's 2 tests in the 2nd week of january
bio and geog
be prepared for it peeps!
and there's 2 chances for you to attempt chem quiz online!
not bad
yeah!!

obsessed with hw
x)

seriously i am bothered with this hu leng hu re attitude that almost everyone is giving me x(
i guess that teddy bears are the bestest friends you can find around x)
love all 8 of you!
x)
argh
jia you for chi hw everybody!

nights

hey another poem x)
from love fate destiny
chanced upon it (:

I will remember you as you are
See you for what you will be
Know you for what you want to be
Judge you for how you were with me
Know you from the place we met
Dislike some of the things you've said

I will remember you as my friend
I now know this is the end
Even though nothing lasts forever
I wish, as friends, we could remain together
One day we may need each other

You're still the Best Friend
I've had the pleasure of knowing
Now, the both of us need a while
For personal growing
We each just need some time apart
Enough time to make a brand new start
I will never forget what we once shared together
My Memories of You
Will always remain
Forever
Present in my heart

Jazzy M Jasmine

ugh
runny nose -_-
flu
my head hurts
slight fever..
and nobody replied my sms :(
haha
nvm
anyway
there was no electricity from nine till 3.30
hmm
only entertainment is radio in handphone
lol

sian
i think i used up tons of tissue
sorry trees
x(

i need comfort..
...........
there's nobody...
guess that's what a loner gets.
haha will seek comfort in my furry bear
sian
there's still chi hw to complete..

ok
bye ppl. x)

got this from:

Best Love Poems


We think about it,
sing about it,
dream about it,
and lose sleep worrying about it.

When we don't have it,
we search for it;
when we discover it,
we don't know what to do without it,
when we have it,
we fear losing it.

It's a constant source of pleasure and pain
but we can't predict from one minute to the next,
which could be today.

We love our parents,
our brothers and sisters,
our boyfriends and girlfriends,
our cats and dogs,
our comfortable shoes
and our baseball gloves.

Love
- It's a short word,
easy to spell,
difficult to define,
impossible to live without.

come to think of it
my malay is quite rusty now
tsk
must recap this hols
hmm
cikgu patimah is retiring :(
so next year is another cikgu
tsk
don't like oral
can't talk for oral
my brain just go blank

i think my bro go chalet le
don't care
lol

my room is a mess
not the table but the shelves and all
tsk

ulcer
ouch
forget it
do hw
blah
freakish
what am i doing?

haha
xD
byes

got this from daddy (:


The day I wished I knew Malay

Choosing to study French instead of Malay has handicapped this reporter

By Debbie Yong



THE recent push to encourage more young Singaporeans to take up Malay as a third language brings to mind a street poll I had to do for an article some time ago.

As I approached a couple, whom I had overhead chatting in English from afar, they suddenly switched their mode of conversation to Malay.

'Sorry, no English, speak Malay?' they muttered as they slowly backed away, despite my cajoling.

'Alamak, er, tak tahu,' I returned, which only made them chuckle at the cripplingly limited extent of my Malay vocabulary.

Though I was starting to think that months on the job had hardened my hide to rejection from the media-wary, this incident riled me.

It made me rue the day, 10 years ago, when the younger, more Western-oriented version of myself checked the box for French instead of Malay when given a choice to take up a third language in secondary school.

Had I been able to vocalise my thoughts in Malay to my interviewees during the poll, I might have saved myself the frustration.

Better still, I might have won over a greater measure of their trust and a sincere answer by using a language they are more familiar and comfortable with.

Language, after all, is more than a tool for communication. It is an identity marker that bands together the 'in' group from the 'out' group.

I often watch with envy as my parents and grandparents switch easily between Malay, English, Mandarin and Chinese dialects to banter with neighbours and heartland hawkers. They are, to me, truly emblematic of a racially harmonious Singapore.

Although I enjoyed my French classes which enabled me to navigate faraway continents, my grasp of the language has since weakened, mostly due to the lack of cultural context and conversation partners to keep up with here.

Malay conversation partners, on the other hand, are barely an HDB corridor oroffice cubicle away.

Still, while the clarity that age brings lets me see the wisdom in the ministry's push now, I wonder if things will change.

Learning a language requires a committed interest in its related culture, which cannot be induced by dangling a quick-fix carrot of two points off junior-college admission scores.

Even in my time, every student attending the MOE Language Centre already knew that those who chose Malay as a third language were making a wiser choice.

But we still went ahead and took our French, German and Japanese classes anyway.

After all, to be young is to be impulsive, to dream about faraway lands and to passionately pursue our interests - however impractical.

debyong@sph.com.sg

went westmall with wenjie, audrey, cp and kok ytd
watched enchanted
some parts were weird and somehow illogical
imagine the prince meeting the princess for the first time and saying lets get married tomorrow morning.
haha xD
maybe i am too pragmatic and can't appreciate such romantic gestures. x)

woke up at 12 plus today
piglet.
x)

doing hw now
hmm..
nth to do.
except for heymath which i am doing on foolscap now, don't trust the computer ><
then is geog, should take at most 1 hour to finish the 2 packages

haha
then left with chi!
which is the most difficult to finish
o.0
must brush up on languages this hols,
very impt ppl!

look forward to scrabulous
but hw have to be done first so i am going to navigate away from this page.
lol
byes

post later

yoohoo!
i used the whole afternoon studying kidney!
very very tiring so i came straight to scrabulous!
x)

ok
my mum is obsessed with Lakeshore
o.0

i aim to finish all hw by next week
and it is very possible x)
left with mainly chi only
wooh
no slacking
x))

cousins and aunt and uncle going taiwan to visit another cousin
departing on 5 dec!
uh
i have to chiong revision so not going x(
there's still next year
haha

ok
my new bear looks fierce
always having mood swings one that bear
funny
have to slap it to make it happy
o.0
-_-
T_T

ok
scrabulous time!

....
went chinatown today
erm the restaurant was ...
lol
kept laughing xD

still at bio
i know i am digressing
sian..
i think spa is ..
nvm
just hope sciences would be pulled down bcoz of that
heh..
i want to study my sec 4 ss now!
prepare ch this year
nxt yr conc on other subs
..
-_-
uh..

this hw list is for audrey (:

ENG: NONE
CHI: heh i hcl, dunno exp chi have what
A MATH: i think for audrey's grp is finish the binomial ws and eoy paper if you have
E MATH: 3 papers, heymath and kinematics ws
CHEMISTRY: 3 ws, spa skill 3 practise, self-study chpt 19 and 20, go asknlearn download ppt and ws and do online test (1 to 23 dec)
BIOLOGY: 4 ws(only need to do first 2), read chpt 11, prepare chpt 10 & 11 for class test, revise topics
GEOGRAPHY: 2 wkbk ws, tourism package and prepare tourism test in wk 2
CH: Nanhua SBQ, SS AND HIS eoy qns(those you did not do for eoy)

there should be no more..
revision left!

revising bio xD
haha
the person whom I have missed for a whole 9 days is finally going to be back in Sg in a couple of hours! yay!

scrabulous is ermm...
boring?!
i can't believe myself either
oh man

internet surfing is sian too xD
haiz
someone talk to me!
wenjie is going to board plane so she can't talk x)
haha
wooh
can't wait to see her
sheesh i seem so obsessed with her
ahem ahem
okaes
=D

wenjie is coming back!
wooh xD

only love lyrics (:

2am and the rain is falling
Here we are at the crossroads once again
You're telling me you're so confused
You can't make up your mind
Is this meant to be
You're asking me

But only love can stay
Try again or walk away
But i believe for you and me
The sun will shine one day
So i just play my part
Pray you'll have a change of heart
But i can make you see it through
That's something only love can do

In your arms as the dawn is breaking
Face to face and a thousand miles apart
I've tried my best to make you see
There's hope beyond the pain
If we give enough
If we learn to trust

But only love can stay
Try again or walk away
But i believe for you and me
The sun will shine one day
So i just play my part
Pray you'll have a change of heart
But i can make you see it through
That's something only love can do

I know if I could find the words
To touch you deep inside
You'll give my dreams just one more chance
To let this be our last goodbye

But only love can stay
Try again or walk away
But i believe for you and me
The sun will shine one day
So i just play my part
Pray you'll have a change of heart
But i can make you see it through
That's something only love can do

That's something only love can do

blah
bored
i have 8 bears now
LOL
searching for one with no fur
lol
pooh has no fur
but too ex la
can't afford

heh heh!
my cousin and grandma is here! x)
play uno uno!
pity my grandma don't play mahjhong!
kidding, i am crazy. xD

eh..
the ama paper not easy to do.
-_-
ok my brain is stupid
x(

do geog revision!!
i have given up on heymath after i lost the document containing my answers.
tsk
how can like that
waste my time, eyes, brains, fingers. >.<

seriously bored
need to find something to do
and there's virtually nobody to talk to on msn except for LJQ, LOL!
zzzz
.....
-_-
i want to buy pens of assorted colours, like purple to make my notes, erm more appealing to the eyes?
or i think i would sleep while reading it, too plain with just a few colours.
paiseh my eyes like colours

ah!
gtg byes
blah blah
no motivation to do chi hw
better do them!
my group ppl must do okaes!
=D

blah
NIGHTS!
or should i say EVENING
LOL
lame

heh
i want laptop
but daddy say after o lvl then can buy x)

haha
wait until then then can choose a good one
xD

3/4 peeps have fun at chalet!!
chemistry!

blah blah
money!

eh.
stomach upset neary killed me today
thx daddy!
heh heh
my dad's bdae coming up!
xD

scrabulous again wooh!
still studying chem
x)

wenjie is coming back this fri!
yay!
haha
oh man
i don't want to do hw already, so difficult.
haiyuh
aim to finish everything by end of 1 dec!
then 1 month revision
hiong right?
seriously nth to do at home except for tv, music, scrabulous and hw
lol

never touch marble cake right out from the fridge
intestines hate it
x(

scrabble!
x)
revising chemistry now.
x)
workaholics unite!
haha jasper is another workaholic
jia you!

study study
am not a freak
xD
cousin and grandma coming over i think
playtime!

ok
chionging hw
feeling very down and confused.
tsk
thx audrey for talking with me
and the lady who played scrabble today with me.
(:

...
2 days left
to boredom
i hate it man
i find sch very lovable now
tsk tsk
haha
to those going overseas, yi lu shun feng! (: :D
rmb to do hw 3/4 hcl peeps! x)

haha
being loved is a blessing x)

eh
dory fish is not bad after all
dolly get well soon! must fight off the stupid virus!

lots of hw
to accompany me x)
crazy la
who loves hw these days..
i just hope i don't lose the drive to study for o levels.
seeing seniors having fun makes me want to slack x)

okaes
super high singing inconsolable by backstreet boys with my bro x)
blah blah
nights. love all of you. (: :)

ah
left with ch and chi hw
see if i got mood to do heymath or not
heh
i seriously will miss sch when sch ends
tsk
i am abnormal
there's nth to do at home
coz most ppl are going overseas
so nobody to go out with
revision
parents are busy
haiyuh
hols are boring

blah
scrabble is so addicitve
can't stop playing..
heh
will start isketch
haha
xD
x)))
gotta play now
byes

Inconsolable by Backstreet Boys. (:

I close the door
Like so many times, so many times before
Filmed like a scene on the cutting room floor
I wanna let you walk away tonight without a word

I try to sleep, yeah
But the clock is stuck on thoughts of you and me
A thousand more regrets unraveling
OOoh, if you were here right now,
I swear I'd tell you this

[Chorus:]
Baby I don't wanna waste another day
Keepin it inside, it's killing me
Cause all I ever wanted comes right down to you (to you)
I wish that I could find the words to say
Baby I would tell you, every time you leave
I'm inconsolable

I climb the walls, yeah
I can see the edge,
But I can't take the fall, no
I've memorized the number
So why can't I make the call
Maybe cause I know you'll always be with me
In the possibility

[Chorus]

No, no, no

I don't wanna be like this
I just wanna let you know
That everything I hold in
Is everything I can't let go (oooh, can't let go)

Cause BABAYYYYY

[Chorus]

Don't you know it baby
I don't wanna waste another day
I wish that I could find the words to say
Baby I would tell you, every time you leave
I'm inconsolable

Yeah, yeah, yeah
Oooh, I'm inconsolable
Whoaa yeah
I'm inconsolable

shit
i think i am damn unfilial
slap me scold me somebody pls.

Personality Test (:

The minute I heard my first love story,
I started looking for you, not knowing how blind that was.
Lovers don't finally meet somewhere.
They're in each other all along.
~ by Maulana Jalalu'ddin Rumi ~

Being deeply loved by someone gives you strength,
While loving someone deeply gives you courage.
~ by Lao Tzu ~ * wow Lao Tzu (:

Sometimes we let affection,
go unspoken,
Sometimes we let our love
go unexpressed,
Sometimes we can't find words to tell
our feelings,
Especially towards those
we love the best.
~ by Author unknown ~

Inside the heart of each and every one of us there is a longing to be understood by someone who really cares. When a person is understood, he or she can put up with almost anything in the world.
~ by Rev Ed Hird ~

Love is an act of endless forgiveness
A tender look which becomes a habit.
~ by Peter Ustinov ~

The best and most beautiful things in this world cannot be seen or even heard, but must be felt with the heart.
~ by Helen Keller ~

yay!
new hardware
free of charge wor!
x)))
thx so much man :)

tons of hw
finished 2 chem ws this afternoon
played uno
watched dvd
slack eh?
haha xD

there's e math,geog and chi to go!
drawn a lot of graphs lately
my free hand curves are still atrocious

human geog not so easy
must yong gong du shu!
cannot slack and sleep the hours away!

ok
wenjie said i am not as cheerful as before nowadays.
hmm
i will try to keep my smile up always :D

tv! tv!
haha
another source of distraction
playing scrabble now
very very shuang
bingoed!
x)

ok
the counseller said one may mistake admiration for another person to be romantic love
and that romantic love is only possible if the other party returns it
very true (:
so don't mix pure admiration for love
(:

com is still lagging
forget it
lately becoming sick and tired of school
tsk
meaningless..
don't see any purpose..
just exams and all

never thought i would be so fragile
i am sorry
i will control my tear glands i promise (:

lately
there's quite some problems
feel lazy
don't want to go and solve them

tourism
human geog is full of data in graphs,pie charts x)

watching Shang Dao
wooh
realised a lot of guys in there look like bears xD
no offence
bears are very cute.
x)))))))))
better shut up or my bro will kajiao me about bears......

hw
hw
hw
hw
hw
hw
love or hate it
its up to me
learn to love
forget how to hate

found this on Imeem
by LY (:

一个朋友告诉我，他哭了，为了一个女孩。
“你一定很爱很爱她吧。”

“是爱到不知道怎么办才好。”

“是吗？”

“男孩在你面前哭说明他已经快要窒息了,如果你拉住他的手，他真的可以陪你走完一生;如果你放弃了他，他会很难再回到以前的自己。”

他的话音刚落，我心中突然很压抑……想到了他——那个曾经为我哭泣的男孩。

那一个夜晚，那一个电话，那个男人，孩子般的男人，在我的那一端很用力的哭，孩子气的哭，很闷的声音，手心潮湿，很模糊的语句，：再给我们一个机会 ````再，我真的，真的，不可以没有你```我错了，好，好后悔````，听到他含糊的声音，含糊的哭泣，忽然觉得很温暖，很心疼，好心疼，痛的感觉像潮水，涌出来，没有预兆的，让人窒息````

如果对于明天没有要求，牵牵手就像旅游。可是，我们是那么认真的讨论过我们的未来，我们要一起去坐浪漫公车，一起闭着眼睛过马路，陪你一起去教堂弹钢琴，一起逛街挑选窗帘，一起散步遛狗，一起一起到老`````

我选择了原谅，给彼此一个机会，看到他的眼泪，拉住了他的手``现在，我很快乐

男孩，不轻易哭泣，只有面对最爱的人时，才会变得脆弱。

男孩，不轻易哭泣，只有在太爱你的时候，才会放下自尊。

女孩，如果有个男孩为你哭，请拉住他的手，他真的可以陪你走完一生。

女孩，如果有个男孩为你哭，请不要放弃他，也许一个选择会毁掉一个人。

喜欢一个人，在一起的时候会很开心
爱一个人，在一起的时候，会莫名的失落

喜欢一个人，你不会想到你们的将来
爱一个人，你们常常在一起憧憬明天

喜欢一个人，在一起的时候永远是欢乐
爱一个人，你会常常流泪

喜欢一个人，当你们好久不见，你会突然想起他
爱一个人，当你们好久不见，你会天天想着他

喜欢一个人，当你想起他，你会微微一笑
爱一个人，当你想起他，你会对着天空发呆

喜欢一个人，你会想,他有了孩子，你一定会很喜欢，
爱一个人，会有一天，你突然很好奇：将来我们的孩子会是什么样子

喜欢一个人就是希望大家都开心
爱一个人希望他会更开心

喜欢一个人，你要得只是今天
爱一个人，你期望的是永远

喜欢一个人，是看到了他的优点
爱一个人，是包容了他的缺点

喜欢和爱的区别就在于
当你站在你爱的人面前,你的心跳会加速
当你与你爱的人四目交投,你会害羞

但当你站在你喜欢的人面前,你只感到开心
但当你与你喜欢的人四目交投,你只会微笑.
　　　　
当你与你爱的人对话,你觉得难以启齿
当你爱的人哭,你会陪她一起哭

但当你和你喜欢的人对话,你可以畅所欲言
但当你喜欢的人哭,你会技巧的安慰她.
　　　　
当你不想再爱一个人,你要闭上眼睛并忍着泪水
当你不想再喜欢一个人,你只要掩住双耳!
　　　
喜欢，是一种心情
爱，是一种感情

喜欢，是一种直觉
爱，是一种感觉

喜欢，可以停止
爱，没有休止

喜欢一个人，特别自然
爱一个人，特别坦然

喜欢一个人，有时候盼和他在一起
爱一个人，有时候怕和他在一起

喜欢一个人，不停的和他争执
爱一个人，不停的为他付出

喜欢一个人，希望他可以随时找到自己
爱一个人，希望可以随时找到他

喜欢一个人，总是为他而笑
爱一个人，总是为他而哭

喜欢，是执着
爱，是值得

喜欢就是喜欢，很简单
爱就是爱，很复杂

喜欢你，却不一定爱你
爱你，就一定很喜欢你

其实，喜欢和爱仅一步之遥
但，想要迈这一步就看你
是喜欢迈这一步
还是爱迈这一步

I don't believe in love
coz i realised 'love' is actually like
hmm
lets wait patiently for true love
till that day will I know the worth of sacrfice

ok
for chi hw, to 3/4 peeps
go asknlearn to download the info package for the 2 qns that you have been tasked with
complete them and send to mr ng (:
then choose one of the two to write a full bao zhang bao dao
haha
(:
will inform all of you of your questions on monday
(:
remind me in case my brain fails to remind me x)
lol
i think mandy loves my laugh 0.o
((:
:))
just realised AVA is cold
auditorium also
but if i concentrate i feel nothing LOL!
must bring jacket for ema and CH lessons or i will freeze to death together with dolly x)

I think the com is having a BIG problem
coz it turns of by itself
it doesn't love me
):
D:

ytd went for last CIP session
quite ok except for the first unit we went to
did quite a lot of things for him
he is locked inside the house
quite pitiful..
it made me realise that there is a side of Sg that I don't really have a clear idea about
hmm....

charity work.
(:

the weekend is here!
but there's tons of hw to do.
esp e math
ok i am stupid
i need time to do e math

haha
((:
tsk
hol chi hw is very very demanding!
o.0
0.o
hmm
there's quite a lot of math lessons..
-_-

bio is .....

extended curriculum
timetable is quite queer
combined lessons with 3/3OR3/5 for math and 3/5 for Combined Humanities
..........................
-_-```

school-based T-shirts or uniform for extended curriculum?
haha
i also not sure x)


sian...
geog and CH hw....
no motivation to complete them la....
rmb to bring dictionary on wed and eng dictionary for eng lessons! xD

tsk
hope O levels will be over real soon
look forward to 2nd Nov

...
still have to do the ppt. slides for the cca course
...........
i have tons of chocolate at home now
((((((((:
:))))))))

ok
my bro is crazy mugging xiao wang zi..
sian la
dead if he asks for help..

Ngee Ann ((: @ Clementi ((((:

The Diploma in Business and Social Enterprise provides graduates with the right mix of skills to understand social needs and attain business objectives.


If you have the heart for social work, and want to acquire savvy business skills, this is the course for you.

Why is the course different?
Unlike other business courses, this diploma equips students with essential skills for not only businesses but also community & social services. It is the only course of its kind to be offered by polytechnics in Singapore .

What are the career prospects?
Social enterprise is a growing industry. In Singapore , there are over 500 non-profit organisations, and thus there is a huge potential for social enterprises within the community and services sector.

Also, with the increasing awareness for companies to be more socially responsible, businesses now need professionals who know how to achieve social and sometimes, environmental, objectives besides making profits.

Graduates of this diploma can work as social enterprise managers, community development officers, marketing or corporate communication officers, or human resource executives in a wide range of non-profit as well as business organisations.

Accreditation for Further Studies
Graduates can pursue further studies and specialization at local universities.

NUS - Bachelor of Business Administration, Bachelor of Arts (Social Work)
NTU - Bachelor of Business, Bachelor of Arts
SMU - Bachelor of Business Management, Bachelor of Social Science
Pursuits of further studies at overseas universities are also possible.

How to qualify?
Entry requirements based on the GCE ‘O’ Level examinations (or equivalent) are:

Subject 'O' Level Grade

English (EL1) 1-6
Mathematics (Elementary/Additional)
1-7

Any three other subjects, excluding CCA 1-6


Candidates must meet the requirements for aggregate computation, and have sat for at least one of these subjects – Combined Humanities, Commerce/Commercial Studies, Geography, History, Literature, Principles of Accounts or Economics.

What does the course cover?
The course focuses on giving students experiential learning through case studies, forums and projects.

In the first year, students get solid foundation in social and environmental studies, and business fundamentals. In the second year, students learn organizational framework and dynamics, marketing and communication skills. In the final year, students study networking and project management skills.

Students also acquire valuable experience in starting or managing social enterprise projects in the 6-month Practicum or Industrial Attachment with a local or overseas organization during their final year.
Course Structure

First-Year Modules

• Introduction to Social Enterprise, Social &
Environmental Studies
• Social Psychology
• Introduction to Statistics & Research Methods
• IT Applications
• Economics
• Principles of Accounting
• Business Management
• Written Communication


Second-Year Modules

• Non-profit Organisations & Development
• Human Resource Management
• Legal framework for Social Enterprise
• Principles of Marketing
• Business Communication
• Enterprise Creation & Development
• Public Relations & Events Management

Final-Year Modules

• Overview of International Systems
• Crisis Management and Conflict Resolution
• Managing Community Services
• Corporate Governance
• 6-month Practicum or Industrial Attachment
Programme or Action Research Project

* Students will also take Interdisciplinary Studies (IS) modules which cover Creativity & Applied Thinking Skills, Life Management Skills, Contemporary Issues, Cross Cultural Communication & Practices, World Issues, Innovation & Enterprise in Action, and Sports & Wellness programme.



For more details on Interdisciplinary Studies (IS) modules, please log on to www.np.edu.sg/is/

Contact Us
Mrs Wong Leck Hoon
School of Humanities
Tel: 6460 8974
Email: sch-hms@np.edu.sg

Ngee Ann Polytechnic
Toll free: 1800-4607333
(admission to full-time courses)
General enquiries: 6466 6555
Fax: 6468 3207
Website: www.np.edu.sg
Email: JoinNP@np.edu.sg

there's another business
also psychology and mass com.
~wooh~

here's another one :)

Diploma in Accountancy (ACC) (3-year course)

Introduction

Diploma in Accountancy (ACC) gives students a head start in their accounting career. Students are taught to perform the crucial role of keeping proper company financial records, assessing its profits and losses as well as its future potential for growth.

The course comprises foundation modules that provide essential accounting, computing and communication skills. These are complemented by basics in other related disciplines like economics, information systems, taxation, business and company law. Students are also equipped with auditing skills that enable them to review a company’s accounts and procedures to ensure transparency in its financial reporting.

The final year of the course focuses on specialised and practical training, such as the Accountancy Practical Training (APT) programme. Students can choose to go on the APT programme for about six months with major international accounting firms, reputable organisations and government-related agencies to gain the relevant working experience or pursue more finance-related modules.

Career Prospects
ACC graduates can work in the fields of accounting, audit, taxation, finance, consultancy, insurance and banking. With further education and career development, they can move up to higher positions such as Senior Accountant and Regional Financial Controller.

Accreditation for Further Studies
Graduates are eligible for admission to many local and overseas universities. Those who plan to continue their education abroad will enjoy advanced standing for business and accountancy degrees at many universities in Australia, New Zealand and the United Kingdom.

Professional institutions like the Association of Chartered Certified Accountants (ACCA), the Institute of Chartered Secretaries and Administrators (ICSA) and the Chartered Institute of Management Accountants (CIMA), grant further exemptions in their professional examinations for ACC graduates.

Entry Requirements
Entry requirements in the GCE 'O' Level examinations (or equivalent) are :

Subject 'O' Level Grade

English 1–6
Mathematics (Elementary/Additional) 1–6
Any three other subjects excluding CCA 1–6


Candidates must also meet the requirements for aggregate computation.

The aggregate computation for selection is based on grades obtained for English, Mathematics, a Humanities subject (Grade 1-9) and two other subjects (excluding CCA). Humanities subjects include Combined Humanities, Commerce, Commercial Studies, Geography, History, Literature and Principles of Accounts.

Note: Students enrolled in the course will be required to own Notebook Computers for their studies.
Course Structure

First-Year Modules

Level 1.1
• Business Statistics
• Computing & Information Processing
• Introduction to Financial Accounting
• Microeconomics
• Business Communication 1

Interdisciplinary Studies (IS) Modules
• Creativity & Applied Thinking Skills^
• Sports & Wellness ^

Level 1.2
• Business Computing Applications
• Business Management
• Fundamentals of Financial Accounting
• Macroeconomics
• Business Law

Interdisciplinary Studies (IS) Modules
• Individual & the Community ^
• Life Management Skills ^


Second-Year Modules

Level 2.1
• Business Communication 2
• Cost Accounting
• Finance of International Trade
• Intermediate Financial Accounting
• Taxation 1

Interdisciplinary Studies (IS) Modules
• Any 2 general Interdisciplinary Studies modules^

Level 2.2
• Auditing 1
• Enterprise Accounting Applications
• Financial Management
• Management Accounting 1
• Regulatory Framework of Accounting

Interdisciplinary Studies (IS) Modules
• Innovation & Enterprise in Action ^

Final-Year Modules

Level 3.1
• Advanced Financial Accounting
• Auditing 2
• Company Law
• Taxation 2
• Business Communication 3

Interdisciplinary Studies (IS) Modules
• World Issues: A Singapore Perspective^
• Any 1 general Interdisciplinary Studies module^

Level 3.2
• (Pathway 1) Finance Option
• Financial Planning
• Financial Markets & Services
• Enterprise Creation & Development
• International Economics & Finance
• Investment
• (Pathway 2) Accountancy Practical Training


^ For more details on Interdisciplinary Studies (IS) modules, please refer to the IS website at www.np.edu.sg/is/

IS Modules
The School of Interdisciplinary Studies (IS) delivers the interdisciplinary curriculum under the Ngee Ann Learning Model (NLM). The NLM was introduced in 2001 to nurture a new generation of professionals with multidisciplinary skills to meet the challenges of a knowledge-based economy. The NLM incorporates core disciplines and Interdisciplinary Studies. It also nurtures innovative and entrepreneurial traits through the Innovation & Enterprise in Action (I & E in Action) module. IS modules challenge boundaries and offer insights into Communication, Entrepreneurship, Life Skills, Media & the Arts, and Science & Technology.

tsk
i think i am obsessed with ngee ann
yay!
mug mug!
jia you, you can do it if you believe in yourself! (((((:
feeling positive
and yet negative in some aspects
hm....
this is a secret between me and wenjie
i really am not sure of what i want
its just an infatuation
stop brooding over it.

report book
tsk
don't really like it
but its still acceptable

poly!
same aggregate as wenjie
we both going poly!
but different poly, she wants sp, i want np. x(

tsk
who said poly is bad
that's such a shallow mindset..
-_-

went jp with mum
saw audrey! x)))))

当我望着你背影的时候
赫然发现原来自己是多么的幸运
但是也了解自己是你前途的绊脚石
所以决定放弃

I am just a hindrance

so I shall keep a distance

thx for the memories, friend (:
can't find any words to relay my thoughts
forget me, it will do you good

..........
maybe..
i just like to alone, isolated
LOL
tsk energy changes
quite unfamiliar with SPA already..

O lvl chi is even worse..
die liao la...

HAHAHAHAHAHAHA
happy!

or sad?
LOL

hmm wonder if mdm chang will stick to her current arrangement
but she said not confirmed yet
maybe she will change her mind..
-_-
o.0

tsk
went JJ today
lol
have to do a ppt
realised juniors are really cute and nice!

then went to do mock exam!
damn funny
wenjie HAHAHAHAHAHAHA
fun...
then i blur blur
put wrong place the scripts -_-

went home
shower
watch a bit of tv
and fell right asleep on sofa.. T_T
woke up around 8.....

o lvl chi and chem spa 2 next week!
jia you!!

from shawn (:

1. Who were you with last night?
huh? my mum and bro loh.
2. What woke you up this morning?
heh. my body clock
3. Where are you?
in front of the com
4. Is tomorrow going to be a good day?
erm not sure
5. Did you kiss or hug anyone today?
no..
6. When was the last time you cried?
forgot

-The PAST-

7. Ever thrown up in public?
nope
8. Passed out because of alcohol?
i don't touch alcohol
9. Who's on your mind RIGHT NOW?
(:
10. Would you take a bullet for anyone?
yup.
11. Where would you like to live?
Sarawak. (:
12. What kind of home would you like?
Semi-detached. but i have to see if i am rich enough
13. Where do you see yourself in 5 years?
in uni, hopefully

- ON MYSPACE/FRIENDSTER -
14. have you ever kissed anyone on your
top friends?
huh?
15. Who was the last person that left
you a comment?
Audrey!
16. When was the last time you fell over
or ran into something?
eh.. i think ytd.
17. Do you listen to music everyday?
yup
18. What was the last thing you ate?
erm green apple lol
19. Are you a fast typist?
average
20. About how many people have you liked?
a lot of friends. (:
21. What are you doing this weekend?
heh hw loh
22. Whats your favorite type of pop?
...... dunno
23.Whats your LEAST favorite pop?
dunno
24. Have you ever won an award?
yup
25.What is your favorite sound?
running water
26. Are you listening to music right now?
yup
27. Whats a quote that you love?
you always pass failure on the road to success
28. How long 'til your birthday?
less than a year, about 10 mths
29. When were you the saddest in your
whole life?
bad grades
30. What time is it?
4.15
31. What time do you want it to be?
any time will do
32. What makes you mad?
being careless
33. Have you ever had a song written
about you?
no
34. What song(s) make(s) you happy?
love songs LOL
35. What do you like to listen to before
you go to bed?
classical music
36. Do you have a job?
no
3 7. Do you shower before bed or the next
morning (Or both?)
before bed
38. If you were a crayon what color
would you be?
black. outline mah..
39 . What makes you happy?
good grades
40 Whats the next CD you're gonna get?
hmm... wang lee hom? LOL!
41 Name one of your favorite songs?
xiang yao shuo

My aim is
Ngee Ann
Business Management!

but for poly you must use Englsih at 1st lang
grade from 1 to 6.
o.0
omg
must buck up eng now!

stole from audrey again x)

Three Things You Want To Do Before You Die:
1.) Travel around the world.
2.) Have wonderful and meaningful relationships with all kinds of ppl.
3.) Drink coke. I have never okaes, sheesh noob sia..

Three Names You Go By:
1.) Qi Ni
2.) Ni
3.) Lao ni.

Three Screen Names You Have Had:
1.) Qi Ni
2.) bearism
3.) eh.. my IC no.

Three Physical Things You Like About Yourself:
1.)My arms, coz they are strong. lol
2.) Eyelids, coz they are single!
3.) Having no disabilities.. o.0

Three Things That Scare You:
1.)Bad grades
2.) Losing loved ones.
3.) Time which is flying.

Three Of Your Everyday Essentials:
1.) Sleep.
2.) Eat.
3.) Music.

Three Things You Are Wearing Right Now:
1.) Clothes.
2.) Ring.
3.) specs? i took it off.

Three Of Your Favorite Bands/Musical Artists:
1.) Westlife
2.) Wu Yue Tian
3.) eh.. JJ lin ok...

Three Things You Want In A Relationship:
1.) Sharing.
2.) Support.
3.) Security.

Two Truths And A Lie (in no particular order) :
1.) Female (duh)
2.) Short. :(
3.) I love hw..

Three Physical Things About The Preferred Sex That Appeal To You:
1.) Charming eyes.
2.) character is more impt
3.) devotion is more impt LOL

Three Of Your Favorite Hobbies:
1.) Sleep
2.) TV
3.) Eating. -oink-

Three Things You Want To Do Really Badly Right Now:
1.) sleep
2.) see some ppl
3.) see my EOY report book o.0

Three Careers You're Considering/You've Considered
1.) Management
2.) Public Relations/law
3.) Social worker I <3 interacting

Three Places You Want To Go On Vacation:
1.) China (all places)
2.) Myanmar (not now =/)
3.) Vietnam hail culture!

Three Kid's Names You Like:
1.) dolly :)
2.) dawn x)
3.) eh.. dunno..

Three Ways That You Are Stereotypically A Girl/Boy:
1.) I have pink stuff ?_?
2.) I am better in languages and humanities
3.) dunno. lol

Three People That I Would Like To See Take This Quiz Now:
1.) anyone
2.) anyone
3.) anyone

Another.
anyone

1)Who sits next to you ?
Josephine and ziyi

2 )Who sits in front of you?
shazana

3)Who' s on your left ?
josephine

4 )Who's on your right ?
ziyi

5)Who are your bestfriend(s) in class?
`wenjie lol

6)Who's the sporting girl in your class?
` hmm... dunno..

7)Who' s the sporting guy in your class?
` Max

8)Most shy?
` hui jun <3

9) Cutest guy?
` erm.... no comments lol

10) Cutest girl?
` huijun and dolly! xD

11)Prettiest?
` all are. beauty is in the eyes of the beholder :)

12) MOST annoying?
` tsk, daryl

13)Funniest
` yew jian and shawn

14) Your fav teacher ?
` erm.. mdm ros!

15) Fav subject ?
` hmm..... CH

16 ) Who's the class monitor? how's she/he?
`Shawn. Clever and sometimes a bit crappy. LOL!

17)Who' s the asst. monitor ? How's she/he ?
` Dolly. Cute, hardworking and responsible!

18) Your class is...
` Threefour.

19) Do you love your class ? why ?
` Yup! Always full of laughter. :)) something very different.

very sian now
i ran out of chocolate
and my pen inks too
shucks
and i realised i calculated wrongly so i lost marks. wth.

-_-
nvm shall play daidee when my bro comes back
yeah!

Stole a quiz from Audrey! xD

Three names that people call you:
1. Qi Ni
2. Ni
3. Lao ni(my dad)

Three most important dates in your life:
1. 18 Aug 1992
2. Oct 31 2007 [temporary]
3. Nov 1 2007 [temporary]

Three things you've done in the last 33minutes
1. A Math
2. Surfing the net.
3. Shower.

Three ways to be happy:
1. Getting good grades.
2. Watching tv.
3. Receiving sms from some ppl. :)

Three of your favourite songs at present:
1. Xiang yao shuo
2. Wo men de ge
3. Ming ming hen ai ni

Tnree Things you will like in the opposite sex:
1. Inspiring
2. Security
3. Caring

Three persons you miss from your past:
1. Primary school mates.
2. My aunt.
3. My grandpa.

wooh
i finished geog
doing Ama now -_-

zzz....
there's geog and ama to do over the weekend
sheesh
bored.
and my G2 pilot pens are running out of ink! >.< -_-

...
my room is in a mess
i am cleaning tmr!!
wooh!
pia O lvl chi and chem spa 2!

ok
hope my overall will be much more prettier

omg 3 teachers have voiced their disppointment with my eoy performance
tsk
i am sorry
guess i just underperformed
last minute revision seriously does not work
my brain is not clever -_-

nvm
i will pia during the hols
=)))))))
thx for the encouragement
<3

haha
seriously i forgot everything to do with models
my psle math was screwed coz i dunno model....
zzzzz........
the book on models i look at the solns then ????????????????? appeared
algebra is seriously much better man
lol x)))))))

MOTIVATION
work together hand in hand
we will improve! yay!
i swear i will bring my english back to my best sub
and chem i will bring back also
as for Hcl, i have not obtained a single A1 except for some tests
i seriously dunno how to push it up to A1
as for Ama
we will be grouped for nxt yr!
i will bring it up from a B to A i promise.

wow
so many oaths
will i achieve them?
heh heh
that depends on the coming hols
I WILL PIA EVEN HARDER.
-i am not crazy la-
x)

omg
sth random
LJQ is very weird -_-
can't imagine knowing him for almost a decade
tsk tsk

ok
correction
3/4 chalet is from 21 to 23 November @ Loyang!

........
weird ppl all around
lol
no offence
i just think the pic is sick... LOL!
-_-

i need motivation
but first encouragement from some impt ppl in my lives.
just a 'nvm,you will do well next time' will definitely brighten my day

Love is an act of endless forgiveness, a tender look which becomes a habit.
-sweet-

walao
my eng is a pathetic B4!
i am sorry to have diappointed you all
especially my eng teachers
will work harder!

others ok la
got 4 A1s liao
left with chem, HCL and Ama
forget Ama its dead anyway
chem erm i will be content with a B3
HCL dunno
i want A2 but B3 also ok la

damn depressed after eng papers came back
:((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((

lol
kok is seriously dead.
x)

wooh!
chalet!!
haha
fun la..

tmr still have to go to sch
take back papers
.......
sian diao.....

oh ya
3/4 chalet is from 25 to 27 nov
lol

watched 4 episodes of shang dao and played dunno how many rounds of daidee ytd night
wooh!!
of coz my dad and mum were out
or cannot watch so many episodes!
but they allow daidee!

haha
going chalet this afternoon
but i am not staying overnight
i leave then come on tues (early morning)
my bro has sch tmr!

i just realised my bear brings me good luvk during daidee
then my bro took it away and i lost like ..................... dunno how many times la...
i want my good luck charm
heng never bet


3/4 chalet @ downtown east!
=)))))))))))))))))))))))))
i going on 23 nov! =D

ok
my room is piled up with files and notes
erm
will find a time to clear it!
before the extended curriculum, i promise!
.................................
nth to do now leh
no tv also
and the internet seems boring after half an hour..
lol

byes
<3 teddy
coz it helps me win daidee! =p

Got this from zy! =)

Singapore girl wins Commonwealth essay prize!
A 15-YEAR-OLD Singaporean, competing against 16- to 18-year-olds, has
won the top prize in a writing contest that drew 5,300 entries from 52
countries.

In the annual Commonwealth Essay Competition, Amanda
Chong of Raffles Girls' School (Secondary) chose to
compete in the older category and won with a piece on
the restlessness of modern life.

Her short story, titled What The Modern Woman Wants,
focused on the conflict in values between an old lady
and her independent-minded daughter.

'Through my story, I attempted to convey the unique East-versus-West
struggles and generation gaps that I felt were characteristic of young
people in my country,' said Amanda, who likes drama, history and
literature and wants to become a lawyer and a politician.

Chief examiner Charles Kemp called her piece a
'powerfully moving and ironical critique of modern
restlessness and its potentially cruel consequences'.
The writing is fluent and assured, with excellent use
of dialogue.

Amanda gets (S$1,590). A Singaporean last won the top
prize in 2000, said Britain's Royal Commonwealth
Society, which has been organising the competition
since 1883. Singaporeans also came in second in the
14- to 15-year-old category, and fourth in the
under-12s. Other winners included students from
Australia , Canada and South Africa.

==================================================================

What the Modern Woman Wants
By Amanda Chong Wei-Zhen
The old woman sat in the backseat of the magenta
convertible as it careened down the highway, clutching
tightly to the plastic bag on her lap, afraid it may
be kidnapped by the wind. She was not used to such
speed, with trembling hands she pulled the seatbelt
tighter but was careful not to touch the patent
leather seats with her callused fingers, her daughter
had warned her not to dirty it, 'Fingerprints show
very clearly on white, Ma.'

Her daughter, Bee Choo, was driving and talking on her
sleek silver mobile phone using big words the old
woman could barely understand. 'Finance' 'Liquidation'
'Assets' 'Investments'... Her voice was crisp and
important and had an unfamiliar lilt to it. Her Bee
Choo sounded like one of those foreign girls on
television. She was speaking in an American accent.

The old lady clucked her tongue in disapproval.
'I absolutely cannot have this. We have to sell!' Her
daughter exclaimed agitatedly as she stepped on the accelerator; her
perfectly manicured fingernails gripping onto the steering wheel in
irritation.

'I can't DEAL with this anymore!' she yelled as she
clicked the phone shut and hurled it angrily toward
the backseat.
The mobile phone hit the old woman on the forehead and
nestled soundlessly into her lap. She calmly picked it
up and handed it to her daughter.

'Sorry, Ma,' she said, losing the American pretence
and switching to Mandarin. 'I have a big client in
America . There have been a lot of
problems.'
The old lady nodded knowingly. Her daughter was big
and important.
Bee Choo stared at her mother from the rear view
window, wondering what she was thinking. Her mother's
wrinkled countenance always carried the same cryptic
look.

The phone began to ring again, an artificially
cheerful digital tune, which broke the awkward
silence.
'Hello, Beatrice! Yes, this is Elaine.' Elaine. The
old woman cringed. I didn't name her Elaine. She
remembered her daughter telling her, how an English
name was very important for 'networking', Chinese ones
being easily forgotten.

'Oh no, I can't see you for lunch today. I have to
take the ancient relic to the temple for her weird
daily prayer ritual.'

Ancient Relic. The old woman understood perfectly it
was referring to her. Her daughter always assumed that
her mother's silence meant she did not comprehend.

'Yes, I know! My car seats will be reeking of joss
sticks!'
The old woman pursed her lips tightly, her hands
gripping her plastic bag in defence.
The car curved smoothly into the temple courtyard. It
looked almost garish next to the dull sheen of the
ageing temple's roof. The old woman got out of the
back seat, and made her unhurried way to the main
hall.

Her daughter stepped out of the car in her business
suit and stilettos and reapplied her lipstick as she
made her brisk way to her mother's side.

'Ma, I'll wait outside. I have an important phone call
to make,' she said, not bothering to hide her disgust
at the pungent fumes of incense.

The old lady hobbled into the temple hall and lit a
joss stick, she knelt down solemnly and whispered her
now familiar daily prayer to the Gods.

Thank you God of the Sky, you have given my daughter
luck all these years. Everything I prayed for, you
have given her. She has everything a young woman in
this world could possibly want. She has a big house
with a swimming pool, a maid to help her, as she is
too clumsy to sew or cook.

Her love life has been blessed; she is engaged to a
rich and handsome angmoh man. Her company is now the
top financial firm and even men listen to what she
says. She lives the perfect life. You have given her
everything except happiness. I ask that the gods be
merciful to her even if she has lost her roots while
reaping the harvest of success.

What you see is not true, she is a filial daughter to
me. She gives me a room in her big house and provides
well for me. She is rude to me only because I affect
her happiness. A young woman does not want to be
hindered by her old mother. It is my fault.

The old lady prayed so hard that tears welled up in
her eyes. Finally, with her head bowed in reverence
she planted the half-burnt joss stick into an urn of smouldering ashes.

She bowed once more.
The old woman had been praying for her d aughter for
thirty-two years. When her stomach was round like a
melon, she came to the temple and prayed that it was a
son.

Then the time was ripe and the baby slipped out of her
womb, bawling and adorable with fat thighs and pink
cheeks, but unmistakably, a girl. Her husband had
kicked and punched her for producing a useless baby
who could not work or carry the family name.

Still, the woman returned to the temple with her
new-born girl tied to her waist in a sarong and prayed
that her daughter would grow up and have everything
she ever wanted. Her husband left her and she prayed
that her daughter would never have to depend on a man.

She prayed every day that her daughter would be a
great woman, the woman that she, meek and uneducated,
could never become. A woman with nengkan; the ability
to do anything she set her mind to. A woman who
commanded respect in the hearts of men. When she
opened her mouth to speak, precious pearls would fall
out and men would listen.

She will not be like me, the woman prayed as she
watched her daughter grow up and drift away from her,
speaking a language she scarcely understood. She
watched her daughter transform from a quiet girl, to
one who openly defied her, calling her laotu;
old-fashioned. She wanted her mother to be 'modern', a
word so new there was no Chinese word for it.

Now her daughter was too clever for her and the old
woman wondered why she had prayed like that. The gods
had been faithful to her persistent prayer, but the
weal th and success that poured forth so richly had
buried the girl's roots and now she stood, faceless,
with no identity, bound to the soil of her ancestors
by only a string of origami banknotes.

Her daughter had forgotten her mother's values. Her
wants were so ephemeral; that of a modern woman.
Power, Wealth, access to the best fashion boutiques,
and yet her daughter had not found true happiness. The
old woman knew that you could find happiness with much
less. When her daughter left the earth everything she
had would count for nothing. People would look to her
legacy and say that she was a great woman, but she
would be forgotten once the wind blows over, like the
ashes of burnt paper convertibles and mansions.

The old woman wished she could go back and erase all
her big hopes and prayers for her daughter; now she
had only one want: That her d aughter be happy. She
looked out of the temple gate. She saw her daughter
speaking on the phone, her brow furrowed with anger
and worry. Being at the top is not good, the woman
thought, there is only one way to go from there -
down.

The old woman carefully unfolded the plastic bag and
spread out a packet of beehoon in front of the altar.
Her daughter often mocked her for worshipping
porcelain Gods. How could she pray to them so
faithfully and expect pieces of ceramic to fly to her
aid? But her daughter had her own gods too, idols of
wealth, success and power that she was enslaved to and worshipped every
day of her life.

Every day was a quest for the idols, and the idols she worshipped
counted for nothing in eternity. All the wants her daughter had would
slowly suck the life out of her and leave her, an empty soulless shell
at the altar.

The old lady watched her joss tick. The dull heat had
left a teetering grey stem that was on the danger of collapsing.
Modern woman nowadays, the old lady sighed in
resignation, as she bowed to the east one final time
to end her ritual. Modern woman nowadays want so much
that they lose their souls and wonder why they cannot
find it.

Her joss stick disintegrated into a soft grey powder.
She met her daughter outside the temple, the same look
of worry and frustration was etched on her daughter's
face. An empty expression, as if she was ploughing
through the soil of her wants looking for the one
thing that would sow the seeds of happiness.

They climbed into the convertible in silence and her
daughter drove along the highway, this time not as
fast as she had done before.

'Ma,' Bee Choo finally said. 'I don't know how to put
this. Mark and I have been talking about it and we
plan to move out of the big house. The property market
is good now, and we managed to get a buyer willing to
pay seven million for it. We decided we'd prefer a
cosier penthouse apartment instead. We found a perfect
one in Orchard Road. Once we move in to our apartment
we plan to get rid of the maid, so we can have more
space to ourselves...'

The old woman nodded knowingly.
Bee Choo swallowed hard. 'We'd get someone to come in
to do the housework and we can eat out-but once the
maid is gone, there won't be anyone to look after you.
You will be awfully lonely at home and, besides that,
the apartment is rather small. There won't be space.
We thought about it for a long time, and we decided
the best thing for you is if you moved to a Home.
There's one near Hougang-it's a Christian home, a very
nice one.'

The old woman did not raise an eyebrow. 'I've been
there, the matron is willing to take you in. It's
beautiful with gardens and lots of old people to keep
you company! I hardly have time for you, you'd be
happier there.'

'You'd be happier there, really.' Her daughter
repeated as if to affirm herself.
This time the old woman had no plastic bag of food
offerings to cling tightly to; she bit her lip and
fastened her seat belt, as if it would protect her
from a daughter who did not want her anymore. She sunk
deep into the leather seat, letting her shoulders sag,
and her fingers trace the white seat.

'Ma?' her daughter asked, searching the rear view
window for her mother. 'Is everything okay?'
What had to be done, had to be done. 'Yes,' she said
firmly, louder than she intended, 'if it will make you
happy,' she added more quietly.

'It's for you, Ma! You'll be happier there. You can
move there tomorrow, I already got the maid to pack
your things.' Elaine said triumphantly, mentally
ticking yet another item off her agenda.

'I knew everything would be fine.'
Elaine smiled widely; she felt liberated. Perhaps
getting rid of her mother would make her happier. She
had thought about it. It seemed the only hindrance in
her pursuit of happiness. She was happy now. She had
everything a modern woman ever wanted; Money, Status,
Career, Love,Power and now, Freedom, without her
mother and her old-fashioned ways to weigh her down...

Yes, she was free. Her phone buzzed urgently, she
picked it up and read the message, still beaming from
ear to ear. 'Stocks 10% increase!'

Yes, things were definitely beginning to look up for
her...
And while searching for the meaning of life in the
luminance of her hand phone screen, the old woman in
the backseat became invisible, and she did not see the tears.

tmr is chalet! :))))))
lol
hope there would be tons of fun!

ok
ytd was so sian
nth to do
went to jb
then stare into space
ignored everybody
.....
>.<
just felt like going back to school and study the hell out of myself
at least that's enriching
ironic, isn't it?
before exams you wish for the exams to be over
but after the exams you wish you could study

i think its partly due to the atrocious results i am gonna get
higher chinese, bio and maybe CH is gone
-_-
i hate results
lol

today nth to do also
....
no tv also
reading books?
omg that thick book is boring........
read 32 pages
feel like sleeping........

what the crap
i want thurs to come quickly!
go back to sch yeah!!

i have absolute no privacy in the house
even my bro reads my smses
what the hell is happening

seriously pissed
i shall delete all my messages
to hell with privacy intruders.

eng oral today
not bad
except when i was halfway through the picture discussion the teacher's handphone rang and stopped me halfway
left hanging there
o.0
weird

then went imm
lol
fun
but i spent quite a bit of money
i am sorry piggy bank xD

=DDDDDDDDD
my entire family is desperate for good serials
so we are now watching SHANG DAO (korean)
addicted
die liao
don't need study...........

oh man
cca is...................

next fri got cca!
sec 3s only!

I am not as perfect as you perceive me to be
all humans have their own flaws
and they outnumber the good qualities for me

so..........................

ok
chalet is 2.30 pm on monday at Chevron!
=)

yay!
finished the impt papers!
no sch tmr coz I don't take physics!
good luck and jia you everyone!

cdp and oral coming!
>.<
i am slacking now
keep indulging in food!!!
hahahahahahahahahahahahahaha

slacking now
tmr still have malay..
sian sian

apprehensive of taking back my papers sia..
why leh?
dunno...
ok i have over 100 messages in my inbox..
x(
sms until siao
but fun :) :D

wenjie 12 oct go out with you!
must be happy! =D

ok
i go eat dinner and watch tv.
slack
slack
sleep

i studied cdp
religion is interesting!
=D
constitution is relatively boring -oops-

lol eng paper today
ok la.
chi paper i confirm fail liao
pek cek

lol
today was more of a talking session
i am a really bad person
hate me
i deserve it anyway

must chiong liao!
coz ama and bio paper confirm difficult!
ahh!!